I feel weary. The last couple of weeks have been a mix of pleasant and unpleasant busyness, including a rare visit from my friend Rose, a visit from my cousin, Sanja, and a visit from a violent stomach virus. Hanging out with friend/cousin was fun, getting the stomach bug was not fun. We also had date night concert, a first for us since we've been married. I painted the bathroom and hallway with help from said cousin, kept up with daily chores as best I could, and continued to teach Andrew the joys of reading. Yesterday we went to my sister Sarah's house to visit her and her husband, Dave. They LOVE our kids so it is a nice visit for all of us. On the way home today I started feeling exhausted. Brian was driving so I even had some down time looking at HouseBeautiful, but once we came inside I began to feel that crazy mommy feeling. I think there were at least two kids crying while I was trying to talk to my dad on the phone. Then my dad wanted to talk to the grandkids and there was screaming and no talking and more tears. Then unloading the car and putting away our travel bags and imgoingtomyroombeforeikillsomeone. Sigh. My friend Judy says it's OK to feel the crazy feelings, it's just not OK if they last. Maybe I should get her to give me a timeframe. I don't have a remedy for my crazy feelings either. They don't automatically go away if I go to X or if I watch my favorite show Z or if I read Y book. The key is to keep going, right?
Tonight I still need to see to dinner and make a menu for the next week. Go grocery shopping tomorrow or postpone one more day? Do we eat low-carb this week or go rice and beans to save money?
I want to get in bed and watch British crime-dramas until I fall asleep.
2 comments:
How did I miss that you had a blog?! Oh the mommy exhaustion...how I know it. I wish I knew the answer!!! lol Let me know if you find it. :) laughter? punching bag in the garage? I've started running! Which is like a miracle from God because as a rule I only run if I'm being chased by an armed burglar. :D It's helped a bit...but I can tell, Im gonna need to run *often* to keep the crazy at bay. ;) See you soon friend!
Hey. Like the above commenter I missed that you had a new post. I know the crazy feeling. When I'm so crazy I could scream, I dash off to my room, shut the door, turn on a box fan for noise, and put in earplugs. Then I just sit or read until I feel like I can function again, or until a kid notices mom has disappeared and knocks on the door. ;)
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