This has been the most difficult week so far. I am six weeks pregnant, eight if you add two like they do at the doctor's office, and one day this week I was so sick I had to call Emily to come get my boys. I threw up all day long, without rhyme or reason. I guess something important was being formed that day. The other days of this week have been taken up between lying in bed and lying on the couch. It was miserable! Thankfully, Brian had a snow day later in the week and he is here this weekend. He has been great, taking care of me and the boys and still working full-time.
I feel lonely when I'm sick. I haven't been out much and I don't really want to go out. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss onions. I want to get up and clean the kitchen and wash clothes and take the boys somewhere. I feel sorry for myself.
I keep telling myself that this part is temporary. I am very thankful to be able to have children, thankful to have two boys already and grateful to be able to be pregnant again. But I hate being sick! I do not enjoy laying around the house or having to ask for help. My pride suffereth.
The Lord is my provider and my sustainer. And Columbo entertains me through the day.
4 comments:
Aww! I'm so sorry, sweetie! I wish I could be there to help or talk to you or something! Hope you get feeling better very soon. I'm also sorry we couldn't catch up with you while we were near by, but it sounds like it wouldn't have worked for you either. Praying for you! This too shall pass! :) Love, Abi
I hear ya! It's really hard to live like that. Even though you know it's temporary and that you get a baby for it in the end, it's still very hard. We finally realized that I suffer from depression when I am pregnant too. I'm sorry it's starting up with a bang again. People who don't experience this have no clue so they don't understand why you never want to do anything or go anywhere and that makes it harder. I will pray for you!
Congratulations!
And this stage of pregnancy is so awful. It feels like you have a bizarre tropical disease -- and then you have to remind yourself that it's GOOD that you're this sick because it means the pregnancy is progressing normally.
Hope the 13th week is magical for you!
-- SJ
Oh, Amy... I'm attending your pity party! :-( It's ok. You have the right and privilege of feeling sorry for YOU! I'll help you out and feel sorry for you, too! I remember how your mom suffered the entire 9 mos with Anna. She stayed sick until Anna was born! Horrible! Hopefully, yours will pass quick and you can enjoy your pregnancy and your precious family!
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